Perfect Story

So many changes. There are times when I sit within myself and just do not know who I am. This Story People came to me today and I cried with the reminder.

Last Day

Beautiful beetle we found on Vashon

Well it's happened and what a ride!! My last day was Saturday and now I am retired. The SS and medicare appointment is soon, the land closes tomorrow, reserved a 22' flatbed to take the cabin apart and transport to Sequim, and so another chapter begins. I suppose I should post this on both blogs. That might start to get cumbersome. We'll see how it goes.

Saturday I was so fragmented. Gigantic upheavals in my life, on my path, beginning the first of the year. Time sure flies. Selling the house, buying land, falling in love with someone I've known over 30 years, retiring... whew what a journey. I love it. It can be overwhelming but I like it. I must be an Aries or something. Wow, I wonder what will happen next!!

I'm going to be very very busy. The cabin, the house, the people I love who will not have immediate access to me, my son, my love, make all of this complex. Within this I feel so alive and awake and tender.

Things Change

Well, I was going to retire the first week of April but now, I changed my mind. Now it's the 21st of February. A couple of days ago one of my bosses called me into the office to see if I wanted the privilege of deleting my line on the weekly schedule template. It's been in the same place for 10 years. There it was this little computer button and I clicked on it and felt a tiny churning sensation in my belly. A voice, "it's really happening." Yep.

Today was my last shift cashiering and I only have 3 more days of actual work left. One of them is 4 hours to go over one of my responsibilities and pass that on completely. There's been a lot of accomplishments here. I'm pretty proud of it all.

So soon, the adventure begins in even more earnest. A willingness to explore and dive into life is producing some pretty remarkable and miraculous events. Beauty, love, compassion, enchanted bewilderment, and joy. I wonder what's going to happen next!

Spring is in the air. Soon the land will close. (read all about it at Earthen Home), the cabin is ready to be disassembled and renewed, Step by step all signs point to go. So... here we go!!

Story People - Secret Of Life

They Made It Through The Storm

The Gift Of You

If you click on the image it takes you to Story People. Love this site.

New Blog Soon

Excerpt of a letter to a friend...

8 days. I thought of that today. That's really amazing to me. I feel like I'm in some kind of self motivating, self generating, self directional vortex. I can still breathe and see everything around me but there's a kind of whooshing that's not exactly a sound. It's just an energy.

I stopped at Blue C for sushi dinner (this is the time I allow myself to eat rice) and picked up a copy of a permaculture magazine to read while I ate. Here is what the first thing I read said...

"If you want to build a ship, don't drum up the men to gather wood, divide the work, and give orders. Instead, teach them to yearn for the vast and endless sea." Antoine de Saint-Exupèry takes me beyond the horizon of day to day concerns and obligations and into the expanded world of dreaming. Permaculture can be earnestly serious, and it does need to be practical, but is also about dreaming a new world into existence, a world that our waking minds cannot yet fully imagine.   ~Maddy Harland - editor of Permaculture

I have feet in a couple of worlds. Balance would be the key. I guess it always has been.

In 8 days my house will close. Today I put an offer on the land in Sequim. Magical land with a place to build my home. Sanctuary land. A place for friends and family to gather. A place for solitude. A place for me to grow old. 

The new blog is coblove.blogspot.com As time goes on the journal of the unfolding imagination/dream of this place will have entries about it, as I have time. April 4th is my last day at work. I imagine after that there will be more posts. We'll see. 


Oh, and I've decided on a new tattoo. It's the Medicine Buddha Mantra written in Sanskrit. To not only eliminate the pain of disease but also help in overcoming the suffering of attachment, hatred, jealousy, greed, and ignorance.