Walking on a Glorious Day

Daphne. I inhaled the scent first and it mesmerized me into searching.

I could almost feel it on my skin and taste it. Primitive and Powerful.

A sky whose passion and beauty brought tears.

Moments of Balance. My practice. My sensation of Home and Love.

Say Something

New Arrivals

Deep Openings

When I was decorating my house, several years ago, I had an image of alcoves created in perfect places throughout. In my new home, I need to make this happen. In the walls, in me, in my life. Places that hold the important things like altars, like tree hollows, like open hearts and minds.

Radio Find

What IS to become of us? Each of us all, separately and together. Oh the path of our choices and our denials. Oh the income and debt we gather from our comings and goings. One foot in front of the other. And then there are the times we rest. Breathe little children. Breathe and never forget that you are loved just as you are.

Here All Along

For days now I've been reading things and I don't usually have the focus. Before I would be distracted but lately I just feel a stillness. I'm noticing things like this and it's quite fascinating. So, I needed a light by my chair and couldn't find one I liked or that I could afford but... it was here all along. And it's one of those lights that turns on and off with a touch on the shade. I've had this light for years and now it's become so important to me. I feel blessed. And the Buddha I found in the back room of a second hand store for 14 bucks and he's imperfect and perfect and I feel blessed. The chair was a gift and it's become a treasure that I will always be grateful for. 

I wonder if the Paleo food I've been eating is helping to create the focus. I wonder a lot of things these days. Curiosity is rampant. Feels wonderful, and unsettling, and alive, and scary, and beautiful.

Dark and Stormy Night

Photo taken from the Fred Meyer parking lot in Lake City. Funny. I went there looking for a light. I had this vision of sitting in my chair reading my new paleo mag with a light behind me. The light from this lamp I would find... somewhere. None at Value Village. Nothing at Fred's. But it will find me. Like the light from this astonishing full moon. The sky was black with clouds and the wind was howling and it was only for a moment that this beauty came into view. Thank god for phone cameras because it was only a short time before anyone looking in this direction would see only darkness. And she was gone.

When You Love Somebody

May each and every one out there wherever you are,

Whoever you are, how ever you're feeling, 

May you feel loved exactly as you are.

Happy Valentines Day

The Magic of Childhood

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Today

A good day. Cried once letting in the love of some very sweet friends. That was good. Spent more time in the studio today than in maybe 30 days. That was good. Finished one piece, Chaos, the one that broke, but changed her name to Passion. Walked the Canal in the rain paying attention to each foot step.

Yeah, it's going to be o k.

Trust

Verb - Used with Object

16.

to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on.

17.

to believe.

18.

to expect confidently; hope (usually followed by a clause or infinitive as 

object): trusting the job would soon be finished

19.

to commit or consign with trust or confidence.

20.

to permit to remain or go somewhere or to do something without fear of consequences

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More Satirical Than Satorical

Snow Buddha

Outside the door of my current home, in the dark.

Home

It's snowing. Makes me think that when I find my new home it would be wonderful to have a fireplace. I would get it going before I took a hot tub and then when I got out I would just lounge in front of it and smile.

It'll be in the woods but not too far from everything. Some water close by and a place for me to be so that my art can be created through me. Birds will wake me up every morning unless they're too cold and need to be somewhere else where it's warm.

I love imagining and as I do it comes closer and closer. And then I am calm.

Comfy

Tonight I figured out that I could pretend my laptop is a tv and watch it from the comfy chair. Pretty sweet. Reminded me of having dinner at home... before. Only the tv was bigger and there were 5 of us. I like all the sweet memories. They make me really sad and really smile inside. It's good to have them. It'll be good not to have everything in my life make me think about it too. Is that what moving on is? I wonder how long that takes. I wonder.

Chaos Disaster

It's now all over the floor of my studio. Tiny little vinyl 45's, hundreds of them. I won't go into detail but suffice it to say, I'm throwing out all those little silver crimps with the soldered loop. Nuff said. Back to the drawing board.

Chaos

All over the place today. In the city. In my mind. More easily distracted than usual. Many things going on and on and on. BUT or is that AND... I put together a necklace from the new firing. I call it Chaos because it's so completely random and those little vinyl beads that look like beensy 45 records, well there are like many of them and there is no rhyme or reason for their organization, color pattern. None. Well, I might have manipulated a few yellows here and there.

Shiga

Took this picture at twilight on my way to the drugstore for a roll of paper towels, a roll of tp, and a prescription. In the Hausa language Shiga means to go deep within, to be involved. Perfect. I've applied to have a plot in this tiny pea patch down the path from my cave. Ah yes, another wish. I'm a Wisher.

Refuge

Kind of a hard day. There was a deeper Farewell that hurt pretty much. I think I've just hidden away inside myself to feel it a little at a time. Maybe it's like when people pass out when it gets to be too much.

Not sure where the time went. I think my little cave is sometimes to safe for my own good. But then, maybe it's just time to feel safe. I think I'll walk up to the store through the park. Nature is such a refuge. There's a little creek running through it, I miss my Felix so much. I wish I had the resources to have him live here. Ah wishes and "if only's". Just walk away Deb and let it all be as it is. And Feel as much as you can.

They Say It's All About Time

I was on break today, music on shuffle, when this came on. I'm so glad there was no one in the break room. Tears flowed like tears will and there was no stopping them, even after I hit the stop button. Damnit. 

Membership!

Whew I did it. Paid for my Fremont Association membership for the year. I figure in about 2 weeks I'll be up and running. Scary excited.  And the kiln is on it's last holding time for a new batch of glass too! Now I just need licenses and display ideas with follow through.

I wasn't sure how all this horrific change would go. I feel kinda manic with the highs and lows but all my beautiful friends tell me I'm doing it perfectly.  Perfect or not it's, definitely mine. 

Upstairs

So the guy that walked in my door, forgetting that HIS door is on the second floor, the guy that lives right above me, moved out last night. Ahem, UNTIL 3:30 IN THE MORNING. ok. Somehow I managed to get a few winks in. Might have been while he was rearranging his U-Haul or something. So he leaves but then, at 8 AM my landlord decides he's going to start remodeling the vacant kitchen and began by pounding on the wall to get the cupboards off, or something.

I left and took myself out for breakfast. It was the best I could do, right?

Off to bed early as I am tired as a grown person. But tomorrow, it's the Seahawks and the Broncos Battle. And before that, I have a kiln load of glass that I want to fire before the game starts. Yum.