Madly

"Power without guilt. Love without doubt."
From the movie Wolf

So in this love I seem to have lost my ability to reframe particular situations to my emotional advantage. She's gone, you see. It's only 6 days and it doesn't matter. One day is bullshit. She would laugh to hear me say it. She'll laugh when she reads it. And it makes me smile to realize that. I've tried the spiritual reframing. I've tried philosophy. I've even tried drowning myself in too much food and t.v. and nada. And so it goes. And so this is how it will be because my longing for her eyes, her touch, her light, her grace, cannot be assuaged. ok. I get it. This longing thing thrives no matter what anyway, even if she's across the room. ok. I get it.